This is very moving, Jenni. I love it that Clark can't actually remember Lois, their marriage and their children, but that he is beginning to fall in love with her all over again:
"Gang hame, lad. That's whaur ye need tae be." Mac's brogue grew even more pronounced as emotions surged through him. "Marje and I will miss ye, but this wis never yer place. And dinn'ae be worrying about not remembering. Ye're already halfway tae falling in love wi' that bonnie lassie a' ower again. I've been watching the way ye look at her."
As Clark recognized the truth of Mac's words, hope flickered in his eyes and his backbone straightened. There was no doubting that Lois had a pronounced effect on his senses; probably she always had.
This chapter is so full of hope, but it is also cruel, in its own and, to people unused to the idea of profound loss, unexpected way. Thanks to the fact that Adrienne taught Clark something about controlling his headaches, he can now remember things without having crippling migraine attacks. He can be told that his name is Clark; he can even be told that he is, or was, Superman. He can be told about his family, about being married to Lois, about having three children.
But even though he can be told all this, he can't
remember. And he doubts that he will ever be able to measure up to that wonderful man that he was in the past, and that Lois was married to.
"Your home is with me and the children." Lois lifted their clasped hands to her chest. "Can't you feel our connection?" Her breathing grew shallow as she waited for him to answer.
Seconds ticked by in silence while Clark stared deeply into his dream woman's eyes, willing her to understand his disorientation. "I feel it, Lois, but I don't know it. I'm not the same man you married... and I'm afraid I never will be."
"Then you don't want me anymore?" Lois' skin had turned deathly pale. She'd never contemplated rejection... never from Clark.
This is extremely moving, Jenni. Clark is too confused, too overwhelmed by trying to regain his own footing, to understand anything at all about what his words must sound like to Lois. How poignant this is. After you have been through a terrible trauma, you can't go back to what you were before, because the person you were has been lost. You have to make a new beginning. And you have to regain your confidence in yourself to the point where you can believe that you are still worthy of being loved; only then can you consider your loved ones' feelings, not just your own.
Perhaps I should quote the paragraphs in the beginning of my post all over again, but I won't. The point is that Clark and Lois love each other still. They can't go back to what they were, but they can make a new beginning, and I don't doubt that they will.
So beautiful, Jenni.
Ann
Seems to be something scottish... 
