HUUUUUGE thanks to Elisabeth for taking the time and looking this over for me. You're a star!
Usual disclaimers apply, I don't own the characters and yada-yada-yada.. Feedback much appreciated and the like. Now let's get the show on the road!
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I've never told you what made me fall in love with you. To be honest it's the whole package.
I don't know why I fought it--why I was so against liking you. It was probably because it would be too easy, so I made a huge effort to hate you, and I couldn't. Nobody could hate you. You're the sweetest, nicest, most caring person I've ever met, and I was one of those people that couldn't help but like you, so I settled for friendship. Thinking it was better than nothing.
Let's not bring Superman into this. He has nothing to do with what I'm telling you. This is about us--about you and me... about our future together.
I'll admit that I had a teeny tiny crush on the man, but it was only because he was so good and he had all your qualities that made you who you are. I'll admit I liked him for all the things he stood for, and all the things he believed in, but I liked him more because it was what you stood for, and what you believed in, as well. You were so much alike! He reminded me of you so much... but I knew deep down that nothing would ever happen. Could you imagine how our life would've been? It would never work.
Lex.... Lex was a safety net. The only feelings I had for him were admiration--but then everything he did got old and I was tired of always saying, "Please" and "Thank you". That's the only space the rat will get out of this.
And anybody else just doesn't matter and doesn't deserve the space.
My point is, that I want you. You're the person I want to spend time with. You're the only person that I can't help but smile back to when I see you smile. The person who I love teasing and sparring with. You're the only person that makes me enjoy it. You're the only person who makes me feel good about myself. The only person that made me feel like it's okay to be myself.
You're the only person that actually saw me for who I really am, and didn't run in the opposite direction.
I realized when I started to acknowledge my feelings for you that I was pulling away because of my past experiences with men, as well as with my family. I've never seen that everlasting love in my parents' eyes. I never thought that it actually existed. And I didn't want to be like them. I didn't want to have their future.
But I couldn't help it. I fell for you. I couldn't get you out of my head. You were like a song stuck in my head. Even with the way you ran off at the worst times. You're far from perfect, but what made me keep going is the fact that you always came back. You were always there when I needed you. And that just makes your faults more bearable, as little as they are. You still had them. And it's easy to tolerate them because you were always there besides me when it really mattered.
And I realized, when I look into your smiling eyes... I see home.
I never told you when I fell in love with you. Truthfully.... from the beginning.
THE END..
