Hi Morgana,
Thank you for your kind words. When I had last tried to write more in this vein, it seemed to become a bit repetitive and I had a strong feeling of diminishing returns. I had actually started to write one additional journal entry before throwing in the towel. And as it happens, it actually relates to what you had quoted. I had edited it out of the original post, but for what it is worth, here it is:
I wrote earlier that if I were smart, I wouldn't let anyone get close to me and that I would just focus on getting the Pulitzer. I've thought long and hard about that and have decided that I was wrong. I wrote, "If I were smart, I wouldn’t let anyone get close to me. If they don’t get close, they can’t hurt me." But now I recognize that if I don't let them get close, they can’t touch my soul. I wrote, "I should just focus on getting that Pulitzer." But now I have realized that if I get the Pulitzer and have no one to share my joy with, it would just be a Pyrrhic victory.
Joy,
Lynn
