Wow, Carol! I would have gone through quite a bt of Kleenex if I hadn't been at work when I read this.
"But you know what your mom's done that's made me a winner? She's given me you and your brother." I rubbed her stomach. "You'll understand someday – I hope – why that means so much to me. I'm all that remains of a dead planet – at least until your brother was born, but I didn't know that he was my son at that point. I know you're my son or daughter and I'd love your brother as much as I do now even if he wasn't my biological son, but knowing that he probably is..."
I sighed.
"I never realized my need to be connected to Earth, but you and Christopher... You do that for me and so you need to take it easy on your mom because she's the one who's made that possible. Besides," I whispered, "it's her birthday."
I looked up to see if she was smiling at that, but instead I saw tears. "Hey," I said, moving towards her. "What is it?"
"I never knew you felt like that," she told me.
I shrugged. "It's not something I dwell on, but yeah. I never really realized how much I wanted my own, biological kids." I helped her sit up slightly so I could sit back down behind her. "I mean, you know I love Christopher – I always have – but..." I sighed, gently rubbing her stomach. "I've never really *known* where I came from, who I am. I mean, I know what was left with the ship and all, but it's like reading about an ancient society. You don't really know. I love my folks, my whole family, but the idea of something – or someone – tangible here on Earth that's connected to me..."
Her hand covered mine and they stilled, our fingers lacing together momentarily. "I'm glad I can give that to you, then."
Now, if Clark is still saying that he is not "in love" with Lois...who is he trying to convince? This has to be one of the most sensual conversations to have with someone that you are not in love with. How could he ever think that he would be content with someone else with everything that Lois has sacrificed for him--given him--everything they have shared? Even if he does get with Lana he will never be able to get with her what he has with Lois. Lois was his first...everything!
Lois and Clark already have what many couples wish for--friendship, love (not romantic), a foundation that they will eventually resort back to in old age when they are unable to share the sexual intimacy that they once did. The have something to go back to.
Now why do I get the feeling that in the next few posts Clark is going to get a feel for what his grandparents told him...about "it's who you can't live without"? Maybe he will experience a near miss with Lois (and the baby) and have to make some sort of decision or maybe just agonize over the possibility of losing her/them. Then he'll realize that he cannot live without her and admit that he has fallen in love.
I agree that he's not giving himself and Lois a chance. For some reason he's hanging onto this Lana thing and I don't think it's a logical reason.
Anyway, great job!
~Sheila
