Hey guys
Thank you so much for all of your lovely comments!
I'm grinning from ear to ear now
Now, Kathy, in response to your questions - I'm an idiot <g>. All day at the computer, varying states of euphoria and pretty strong painkillers apparently don't mix... my brain was pretty fuzzy when I got my final draft back from Wendy, so that explains why all of these glitches are in there when they should have been taken out. I just skimmed too lightly.
So is the bullet embedded in the beeper all along, or does he put it in the beeper during their conversation and you just don't describe that? It's not clear to me...
This was originally the plan, but as soon as I figured out that it had been done already, I dropped it. Believe it or not, I haven't actually seen any fic it was done in [yet] but I didn't want anything in here that wasn't originally mine in the first place
So we have here a couple of indications that Clark "died" 5-7 days ago, but then later in the story you're talking about "weeks".
Again, just one of the plot holes I thought I had cleaned up. I didn't want to define the time too sharply: at first I had it at a few weeks, then a few days, and finally settled on just a week.
Thanks for calling my attention to these, Kathy! The file is slightly altered now, so it should be clearer
I was bothered by the idea that Lois would commit suicide. That was hard for me to buy. I'm not certain that is really in her character, as she is such a fighter.
I agree with CC. Lois, IMO, is not the kind of woman to ever comtemplate taking her own life let alone do it.
Wow, these really made me think, guys!
I started writing this in a time when my own family was remembering some people close to us who had passed away - my sister, who died of SIDS eight years before I was born, and my uncle, who contracted bowel cancer and died in February of this year. What I wanted most of all to portray in this was the sheer devastation you feel when somebody close to you, somebody you really, really love and can't imagine living without, passes away - I wanted to give readers a view on what I felt Lois must have gone through in the aftermath of Clark's death. Her partner, her best friend, and in this fic, the man she has only recently admitted she loves. That's another reason why I wrote it from first person POV - and I'm really glad that people liked it!
Consequently, I'm afraid I arrogantly didn’t even consider that suicide, or the contemplation of suicide, might be OOC for a person as strong-willed and determined to survive as Lois is. This is a very good point - I'm wondering now why I didn't see it before - and it has really made me think, so I have to thank you guys for bringing it up
I can easily see how this could rub some people up the wrong way.
However, it's my opinion that Lois was not in her regular state of mind in this ep - or at least, in part of this ep. In my experience, when you're faced with a tragedy, you go blank - you feel numb - you just... stop. I can accept that it doesn’t affect everybody like this, but I'm afraid that I've never known any other way of dealing with it - at least, not in the first few days, when it still hasn't sunk in. In TOGOM, the only thing I found jarring was that Lois could still go off, find the bad guy, help Professor Hamilton, and get herself into trouble just a day after Clark was shot. You can see it as sheer grit, courage, determination - or you can be jarred by it through your own belief that there wouldn't be anything going around in her head, even a week afterwards, except that image of Clark falling to the ground in front of her, as I was. So that is basically why I made her consider suicide - why I made her jump - and why I made her
not get angry at Clark afterwards and make the situation [and the plot <g>] even more of a tangled mess.
Thank you for this, CC and Xanabee! You've really made me think
Sara.
