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I know I said I was leaving and getting ready for work... but I couldn't let this escape my attention.

Beautiful. Poignant. Sad.

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I don't know well enough to know how much of this rings true for your mother, but regardless, I hope this helped you to say goodbye. I've lost a few people in my life, and I've always found writing to be a blessing. My deepest sympathies to you and your family, Wendy.

Sara

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Beautiful, eloquent and devastatingly sad.

I daren't ask how much of this was Lois speaking and how much was the author's own voice, but thank you so much for sharing this with us, Wendy. Like Sara, I hope that writing it has given you some peace.

Yvonne

So touching

I didn't know about your mother, Wendy, but you have my sympathies. I hope you're feeling better after such a painful experience.

See ya,
AnnaBtG.

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Wondeful story. I have a feeling the cloth for my cross-stitch isn't supposed to be used for tears. Oh, well, it won't hurt it. Very touching. Thank you for sharing this with us.

I, too, was very moved when I read this story. So very intensely emotional. Thanks for sharing it, Wendy.

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Kaethel

Wow, Wendy.

This is incredibly touching.

I don't really know what else to say - I just stared at tis window for about 10 minutes. Just know that your story touched really deeply.

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Julie

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This is very touching and extremely sad.
It brought back lots of my own memories and feelings, and had me in tears. Thanks for sharing this. I hope this has helped you to cope with the situation and find some peace.

Tricia.

A loving tribute. No matter how difficult the relationship, the pain and regrets that would rightfully be there, the affection of daughter for mother still shows through.

I liked this especially:

So completely true and very smart.

CC

Wendy, well done. A touching an emotionally
complex story, but for those of us who have suffered through the loss of a parent, one that rings with universal truths.

There will always be things 'left unsaid', things that we should've, could've, might've done but find that it's now too late. Whether the voice was Lois', using the series as the basis for her internal monologue, or exposed some of the authors own personal feelings and experiences doesn't matter. There is a certain amount of commonality to a loss like this.

We all wonder how our parents really saw us. Were they proud of what we accomplished, even if we ourselves never felt like much of a success? We know we were loved, that's a given, but were we liked? How were our choices viewed? Did they approve, or merely accept them?

And what about the reverse? Did they know how much they really meant to you? Were your feelings clear even if you never made a habit of expressing them?

All those types of emotions are universal to the situation, and Wendy, you did a great job of examining them using Lois, and her relationship with her mother (which was portrayed as less than 'loving' on the show).

I found the bit on Lois' barely recognizing her sick mother as especially poinient. But I can say from experience that those shocking revelations are not the images that stay with you. My memories of the frail, shrunken man whom I had to carry from his bed to the bathroom have grown fuzzy over the years. Instead, when I think of my own father, I remember the strong, confident, no-nonsense man who ruled the house I grew up in. In my dreams he's not the stroke disabled person who fought increasing physical decline for the last twenty years of his life. He's still the whole, robust parent who could do anything. For Lois, (and Wendy), it will probably be the same. The lasting memories will be the good ones.

Tank (who hopes that Wendy, and her family will be able to embrace the good memories, and take comfort in friends and family during these tough times)

Very touching and sad.

Nan

Tank is so right, Wendy. I don't think much of the last days anymore.

You moved me to tears.

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Irene

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This was painful to read, especially wondering how much of it was from direct personal experience, but it was beautifully done. It can't have been easy to write, either -- I hope writing it helped you work through your grief, a little bit.

PJ

Very poignant and touching.

Hope it was therapeutic for you, Wendy. As George Henry Lewes said, "The only cure for grief is action."

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--Ankit

Ohh Wendy

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Very sad story, you moved me to tears.
Hope you feel better soon.

I am very sorry for your mom.....

The story was excelent.

Karla

That was really beautiful and sad.

Rach

Beautiful.

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May you find peace.

I had to stop reading here because my tears got too uncontrolable. My mom is 56. Only 56. 56 and 3 months. And far too young to die.


- Laura

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J

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I'm so sorry. May you find peace and comfort at this hard time. This story was beautiful and so full of emotion.

~Liz

Thank you all. Your words and thoughts mean far more than I could ever say.

As is pretty obvious - and as some of you already knew - this isn't just any story. I lost my mother almost four weeks ago. It was completely out of the blue - it seems incredible that one week I was talking to her on the phone and then a few days later she was in hospital, in intensive care; and a few days after that we were booking emergency flights to Dublin because she had days to live.

That said, this is a work of fiction, of course. Yes, some of the details and of the emotions are real, while others are invented to fit Lois's probable situation. Some of the sentiments here are universal, as a few of you have said in your comments; I couldn't imagine a single person who has lost someone important to their lives who doesn't have that feeling of regrets for things left unsaid, a relationship left unfinished. And I dare say that most of us have conflicted feelings for one reason or another.

A couple of people have said privately that this touched a chord within them, reminding them of painful losses they experienced. If this has been too painful a read for anyone, then I'm sorry - I should have put a warning on it, I guess. Laura, I know what you're going through and if this made it worse for you, I am really sorry. On the other hand, if it helped anyone, then I'm glad. Writing it helped me, and I hope that you'll forgive the self-indulgence involved.

Thank you all again. I am truly touched and grateful to have the support of so many friends here.


Wendy