Title: Revelations in Captivity
Part: 7 'Lois' Answer'
Author: tvnerdgirl
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own these wonderful people, and promise to return my toys once I am done playing with them
Summery: A 'revelation' fic that centers largely on the events that took place in 'That Old Gang of Mine' and Lois' reactions to them. Lois and Clark get locked in a department store by accident and a secret is revealed during a game of truth or dare...
Author's Note: This is the last part of this fic. Thank you everyone who reviewed this
You have made a new fic author feel so so welcome...I look forward to posting and reading more L&C fanfiction to come
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Lois nervously paced her apartment as she waited for Clark to arrive. She hadn’t been able to concentrate on anything, since finding out Clark’s secret. She had tried to do research for their story, but it had been a lacklustre effort and the results had shown that. She had searched every part of her, trying to figure out if she could forgive his deception, if she could get past the pain he had caused her. She had gone from hating him, to wanting to forgive him so many times she felt like she were an emotional yo-yo.
Eventually she had been forced to ask herself one important question. As angry as she was, and she was still angry, did she want to lose him? Was she willing to forfeit his friendship and whatever else they may be to one another because of this? The answer was no.
It was funny how easily she could answer that question once she finally got around to asking it. Deep down, she knew she couldn’t remain angry with him forever. He was far too important to her to just write off completely. Part of her hoped they could resume whatever it was they had started when he kissed her in that store, but the realistic part told her that may not be possible. After the things she had said to him, he may no longer want a relationship. She couldn’t believe she had treated Superman and Clark so differently thinking back on it.
The doorbell ringing jarred her from her thoughts and Lois was shocked to realize how nervous she was. When she opened the door she could see on his face that he was nervous too. That comforted her slightly.
He looked incredibly good, she noted as she ushered him inside. He had changed from his usual suit, into a simple black sweater and jeans. His dark hair fell softly on his forehead, and he wasn’t wearing his glasses. The gesture was not lost on Lois. There were no secrets between them now. This was who Clark was and Lois must decide whether she could accept that or not.
“I…I wasn’t sure you’d come.” Her voice sounded hoarse and foreign to her ears.
“Of course I came Lois,” Clark said quietly. “I’d do anything to make things right between us.”
“I want you to know I’m still angry at you Clark.” She told him firmly. The gentleness in his eyes was throwing her terribly off balance. She just wanted to pull him close and tell him that everything would be all right. “What you did was…well let me ask you this. How would you have felt if the situation were reversed? If you thought I had been killed, then found out that I had faked it, even planned on staying ‘dead’ without telling you? If I had let you grieve for me, the way I grieved for you?”
“I’d be devastated.” He whispered. “You are so incredibly important to me, if I ever thought something had happened to you….God Lois I am so sorry. What I did was completely unforgivable. If you feel even remotely as strongly for me as I do for you, I don’t know how you could even bear to look at me right now.”
“It’s hard,” she admitted with a weak smile. “But not for the reasons you think. Clark when I found out the other night, I was angry. Like I said I still am. But that was no excuse to say the things I said to you. You’re not the only one to be blamed here. I did some pretty unforgivable things as well. I treated you like trash and Superman like a God for the longest time. That must have been hard.”
“You did nothing wrong.” Clark insisted. “I created the other personality consciously. You saw him as a hero. Everybody did. I can’t be angry that I couldn’t compete with that.”
“But you should be!” She exclaimed suddenly. “You have no idea how heroic you are. You Clark, not Superman! You saved me in a way that he never could.” She broke off, feeling tears threaten her. “You taught me how to fall in love. You saved me from being alone. You saved me from marrying Lex Luthor and making the biggest mistake of my life. The thought of you was what stopped me, did you know that?”
“I had no idea,” Clark’s voice was ragged with emotion.
“I wanted to tell you,” she continued, her eyes bright. “I wanted desperately to tell you, but you told me you had lied about loving me. I didn’t want to jeopardize our friendship. When I saw you shot, I…well it was like losing a part of myself. I thought I had any opportunity I would ever have to tell you how I felt.”
“I’ve been so stupid,” he murmured to himself.
Lois smiled.
“Clark I love you.” Her voice was strong with the confidence she now felt being able to tell him her true feelings. “I love you more than I’ve ever thought myself capable. And I’m still angry, but that will pass. And I will love you when it does. You may be Superman, but you’re not immortal, and I don’t ever want to think that something might happen to you without you knowing the truth.”
“What are you saying Lois?” Clark asked her, unable to keep the naked hope from his eyes. “Are you saying you can forgive me?”
She stepped closer to him and looked into the depths of his warm chocolate eyes and felt nothing but completeness wash over her as she saw the love within them.
“I’m saying that I want you to kiss me.” She whispered, a catch in her voice. “I dare you to kiss me. I need you to kiss me.”
There was no hesitation on his part as his hand reached out to cup her chin and bring her to him. The moment his lips touched hers, Lois felt a tidal wave of emotion surge through her. This was what love felt like. It was terrifying, and at the same time the safest she had ever felt. Electricity surged through her as she felt his mouth claim hers tentatively at first and then so deeply she wasn’t sure where he ended and she began.
She whimpered against him as she tasted salt and realized that she was crying. His arms wrapped around her so tightly she thought he’d never let go. She pressed herself against the solidness of his chest and ran her hands through his hair, wanting to experience every part of him. He was the most powerful being in the world and yet at that moment he was just as weak as she was.
Eventually he broke the kiss and pulled her even tighter to him, stroking her hair and kissing her neck gently.
“I love you Lois,” he murmured into her. “And I swear to you that I will never again make you cry.”
“Oh I don’t think you should do that.” She said. Stepping back, she gave him a watery smile. “You probably will. And I’ll probably make you furious when I do something stupid or reckless. But I want to do this Clark. I love you. Whatever we have, I want it to go further. I want to be with you.”
“I want that more than anything.” He told her, his voice husky with emotion. “Maybe….maybe we can go flying together sometime.”
“I would love to fly with you Clark.” She told him with a laugh. “It’s all I’ve ever wanted to do.”
Clark kissed her once more, leaving her breathless. When he pulled away, he smiled a strange smile.
“Just so you know, the answer to the question is you.”
“What? What question?”
“The question you asked me before when we were playing basketball. The one I didn’t answer.” He looked at his shoes as Lois realized what he was talking about.
“The one you took my dare on.” She finished for him. “I asked you who your first love was.”
“You are,” he said again. “You’re my first love and you’ll be my only love.”
“I like this game.” She whispered as she pulled him closer to kiss him once more.
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