Yay! I was checking for this late last night - thanks for posting so consistently! <3
But Ellen wouldn’t go because Sam insisted that he’d be there, only he got held up by his work.
OMG, I hate them. But kudos you to for realism because that's exactly how this works.
But however much I might want that, I don’t belong with Lois.
Weeeelllll......

With Lana perhaps, but not Lois.
Nope.

I pull back and stuff both hands deep into the pockets of my pants. I won't follow that train of thought.
Thank goodness he is who he is.
It's why she's such an excellent reporter for her school paper. Her father might believe she's just dreaming of a journalism career because she's got a teenage crush on me.
I know better.
Awwww, I love this. Swoony.
The best of friends, so much so that I’m almost ready to talk about Lana, because to whom else could I admit the whole disaster?
It's actually really sweet that he thinks of her as a friend.
Lois gives me a roll of her eyes. “Really? Why don’t you just tell her to take a hike?”

I close my eyes and try to ignore that sickening feeling deep inside my gut. “Not yet,” I rasp. *Not ever,* my mind adds.
Good instinct!
That the answer walks right by my side only makes it so much harder. I can't, not with Lois. There's a million reasons why that would never work out. Her age is only one of them. She's like a sister to me, the new family that I built up after I lost mine.
If I can't love Lana and if Lois is off limits, I'd have to find another woman who could accept me as I am.
That's so heartbreaking. So many layers of complication.
Peter and Wendy are only a fantasy.

It's long since time Peter grew up.
omg, bakasi, just stab us in the heart, why don't you?
Do I ever really need more than that?
....I mean, he's waited this long. What's another 3-6 years?
I'm so hooked on this series! Looking forward to the next installment!
And happy new year!