Her eyes closed and his entire body shivered with the magnitude of what she was doing. For him. She was doing this for him.
These are the details that are brought to relief in writing that I simply did not get with the same punch in the episode. I always like the idea of emotion being expressed through a physically. There is something so visceral about that.
Her eyes flew open wide, her hand coming up to touch his as she left out a gasp and a single tear slipped loose. "The way you just touched me..."
He took his hand away as he gave her a gentle nod. Yes, he thought. It's me. Lois, I love you so much.
And precisely this is what hits me when I think about the episode, that at this moment what is happening is just so huge that the revelation takes a backseat. Really at this point what does the alter ego matter? She has chosen to risk her life for those that the man she loves holds dear while trusting her life to him and he in turn has trust her enough to let her. It's such an enormous and perfect orchestration of ultimate love and trust. It's larger than life and this scene delicately encapsulates just that.
It also makes me wonder--has anyone written a Lois POV here? Because I know "She's" was pretty much Clark's from what I remember or am I mistaken? Anyway it would be so great to read about that one moment where his touch makes her realize that he's Clark from her POV. *sigh* So if anyone knows, please pass on the knowledge
Perhaps as she's actually realizing he's Clark, Clark himself is going through the usual "It's me, see me, I love you." After all, he seems surprised from what I remember when she actually figured it out. But maybe I'm not remembering too clearly (I don't think he seemed shocked) or maybe he realizes she knows subconsciously. I'd like to think the latter. Maybe then he _wanted_ to think that given everything that's going on. I think this little snippet is particularly fascinating.
Really great vignette, packs such a huge punch!
alcyone
