Lois knew a little bit, but not much. I'd eventually tell Lana everything if we managed to work things out.
But what if we didn't work things out?
Was I destined to be alone for the rest of my life?
[...]
Should I just commit myself to this marriage for the rest of my life? Was this what I wanted with the rest of my life?
Not really, I admitted to myself. Part of me – a big part – still held out hope that Lana and I could work things out some day. Another part of me knew that possibility was getting smaller every day I didn't go to her and tell her the whole truth and ask her to wait for me.
He gets his so dreamed divorce and if things don't work out with his sick-to-death love, Lois could be an option for
him not to have to spend
his life alone.(!) In any moment he thinks that Lois is a human being and therefore should have feelings.
