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I mean, she wants to be loved, he wants to experience love, but something is holding him back. It could still be his internal/emotional commitment to Lana, but he's admitted to thinking of her less and less in that way. I do think Lana is a factor, but there's something else going on that I can't identify. It's almost as if he's not ready to love anyone...
I remember that Clark thought to himself not so long ago (but I don't have the strength to look it up, sorry, so I'm going to sort-of-quote it, sorry):

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If Lois was the one, wouldn't I know it by now?
To me this is interesting. Clark expects love to be romantic, magical, all-consuming.

Maybe like this:

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Or maybe like this:

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But in any case, I think Clark is waiting for the love that will sweep him off his feet. That will transform his world. That will fill him with elation and certainty. Or, to use another expression, he is waiting for the love that will make him be 'in love'.

Lois isn't doing that for him. She doesn't make him fly. Maybe it's symbolic that he doesn't want to go flying with her.

Perhaps Lana did make his soul take flight. Or he thought she did. I don't think she really did, because Clark has also thought to himself that it was hard to resist Lana's erotic advances, but it was impossible to resist Lois's. If Lana was so much 'the one' for him, then how could he resist her but not Lois?

Perhaps Clark is thinking of Jonathan and Martha's love for each other. Jonathan loved Martha so much that he wanted to be Clark's father because of his love for Martha. Clark decided right away that he would protect Lois's child and maybe be some sort of father to it, but his mind has kept insisting that he hasn't done it because he loves Lois. And doesn't he deserve to meet the kind of woman who makes him love so much? Who makes him want to do everything for her child and who welcomes him into her arms and her heart every night?

This quote from part 105 was interesting and somehow heartbreakingly sad:

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"For us to have more babies, we'd have to make love and that's not going to happen. You don't want to be close enough to me to touch me most of the time – unless I'm puking or you're being all nice about the pregnancy – so how exactly would I manage to get pregnant again in the next three years?"

He looked incredulous. "You don't want me anywhere near you most of the time. I've tried to respect that; to not intrude on your space."
Clark complains that Lois is avoiding him. They can't make love, because she doesn't want to.

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"But you aren't planning on this marriage lasting past Navance's death or Christopher's fifth birthday."

"No," I said, as gently as I could. "Do you want it to?"
And he still doesn't understand that Lois needs to protect her heart because he is still counting down the days until he can leave her, so he can go looking for his real love, who will make him fly.

What a birthday gift to give to Christopher on his fifth birthday, by the way. Say good-bye to Mommy or Daddy, bud, because one of them is going to leave you.

I'd like to see Lois and Clark's wedding license. It should say 'Best before ... ... ... (fill in a suitable date) or Expires by ... ... ...

Seriously, Clark. You are too romantic for your own good. And you are being really selfish, too.

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Can't you stay with Lois unless she makes you feel like this all the time?

Ann